December 15th, 2004
|11:37 am - Terminal Daydreams|
"I've got a terminal daydream, something that you'll never know. . ."
Most of my life is a daydream. It's not true, nor is it right. It is, in fact, probably keeping me from being who I could be.
In the end, I'm a contented man.
I'm not sure that's a good thing. I don't make enough money, I don't have a house that's the size I want. I don't get enough days off, I don't hike enough. I never get enough sleep, and I never get to take as much time with my girlfriend as I want.
But yet, I love where I am in life, I love who I am. It's perfect, and life is running smooth and long.
Nothing is wrong. Nothing keeps me down.
My imagination has never left. I can see sheep through boxes.
I am the Fool of the Tarot.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "God's Own Drunk", -JB
Well, they say that the key to happiness isn't getting what you want, it's wanting what you get. I'm not sure that's true, but I've always felt that I have a gift for being happy--and there are disadvantages (you mention a few) but overall I think it's a good thing.
Erm, you realise you've just said that life is running smoothley in hearing distance of Eris?
Don't be surprised if you get run over by a goat sometime soon.
I can't say as being run over by a goat would surprise me *any* time.
Good. One can never be too careful. They're everywhere.
The Fool? That makes me smile. :)
Doesn't the Fool have a helpless connotation, though? I'm sure you could bring change if you wanted it, but you are just content. That is a rare and, in my opinion, wonderful state to be in.
Not helpless. The Fool knows what he's getting into, knows what's ahead, but can't change it, and so he just kinda skips and whistles into the dangers and the good times that lie ahead.
You know what's happening, and you know you can't change it, so you might as well enjoy it.
Life's a carnival. Gods, please don't let it stop!