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January 4th, 2005


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08:27 am - Tsunami, etc.
I admit. Like fred_smith, I have trouble conceptualizing the Tsunami. I feel disconnected. Obviously, I'm supposed to feel something. Hell, everyone reading this journal seems to be sickened, saddened, or stupified by the thing. About the only "S" word I haven't seen is "sleezy". I think I'm happy that no one feels "sleezy" about the Tsunami.

I gave up worrying about it, though. I don't think it's a failing as a human being. I don't think I'm less of a person. Heck, I don't even think that I'm expected to feel bad about the whole thing.

Is it because I didn't lose a loved one? Is it because I have a really dark sense of humour? Is it because I still haven't mailed out Christmas cards? Is it because I secretly think that these people were dirty and unwashed and could use a good bath? Is it because I'm actually a Republican?

I don't think it's any of those reasons, but then, I'm not known for understanding things.

In the end, I tried to care. I really did. I looked at the pictures, watched the news, and whistled a low whistle at the numbers, shaking my head at the initial offer of $35M of aid. I had all the outward signs of a genuinely caring person. Yet try as I might to care, I failed miserably.

What was my first thought when I heard about the earthquake? "Isn't that near Krakatoa? I'd like to visit there someday." What about when I heard about the tidalwave? "Didn't they expect that?"

I'm sorry, my friends. I just don't feel it.

Think of me what you must.
Current Mood: hopefulLookin' up.
Current Music: "Little Egypt", -JB

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From:fionnabhar
Date:January 4th, 2005 01:42 pm (UTC)
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It is hard to, well, grok something of that enormity. We have a bit of a connection in that while living in Kodiak, Alaska, for six years, we had tsunami sirens going off every Wednesday for civil preparedness. Tales of the actual tsunami that wiped out the downtown and signs along the major streets indicating the 100-feet-above-sea-level mark (the safe zone up the mountain) made it a subconscious part of the milieu of life. When the alarms would go off for real, it was unnerving. We'd just sit in the living room and watch the bay to see what would happen. We had a couple of real ones, but not enough really to flood anything. Still nearly 200,000 bodies stacked up around the Pacific Rim is something I can't quite wrap my mind around either.

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