January 4th, 2005
|08:27 am - Tsunami, etc.|
I admit. Like fred_smith, I have trouble conceptualizing the Tsunami. I feel disconnected. Obviously, I'm supposed to feel something. Hell, everyone reading this journal seems to be sickened, saddened, or stupified by the thing. About the only "S" word I haven't seen is "sleezy". I think I'm happy that no one feels "sleezy" about the Tsunami.
I gave up worrying about it, though. I don't think it's a failing as a human being. I don't think I'm less of a person. Heck, I don't even think that I'm expected to feel bad about the whole thing.
Is it because I didn't lose a loved one? Is it because I have a really dark sense of humour? Is it because I still haven't mailed out Christmas cards? Is it because I secretly think that these people were dirty and unwashed and could use a good bath? Is it because I'm actually a Republican?
I don't think it's any of those reasons, but then, I'm not known for understanding things.
In the end, I tried to care. I really did. I looked at the pictures, watched the news, and whistled a low whistle at the numbers, shaking my head at the initial offer of $35M of aid. I had all the outward signs of a genuinely caring person. Yet try as I might to care, I failed miserably.
What was my first thought when I heard about the earthquake? "Isn't that near Krakatoa? I'd like to visit there someday." What about when I heard about the tidalwave? "Didn't they expect that?"
I'm sorry, my friends. I just don't feel it.
Think of me what you must.
Current Mood: Lookin' up.
Current Music: "Little Egypt", -JB
I'm with you on this one chronarchy
and am heartened to see so many others as well. I think that for me, part of it is that I have no direct ties or experience with the area. Also, I have not seen a single news story on it, even the day it happened. I've seen a few headlines but that is all. It isn't so much the numbers that my brain can't wrap itself around, it is actually more the tsunami itself. I keep trying to picture the big wave and can't. Also, my cold and scientific self pipes up that yes, 150,000 is a big number, but compared to the overall population, not so much.