September 22nd, 2005

surya

Lifting Up the Shards

I've come up with something, a chaos working to deal with certain things in my life.

The problem is, as I plan it, it's becoming more and more clear just how dangerous it is to me personally, and my mental health in particular.

While I admit that it's quite terrifying to think about the implications of it, the possibilities and potential for growth are simply amazing.

The issue, of course, is method. How do I get where I need to go? TOPY would tell me the obvious: "See a cliff, jump off."

There is a lot of work left to do before I decide if this is something I can do, or even need to do.

I promise: there are no tentacles involved. Well, I can't say that there won't be, but I'm certainly not planning any. This is a totally different paradigm.

On a side note, I had an encounter with Eris' mother the other day, and I have a new presentation in the works for PSA or an ADF festival.

Poll #575329 Poll 9: Directions

What should be my single most central concern?

Personal growth
13(28.3%)
Making sure the shit don't spatter on others
3(6.5%)
Personal safety.
6(13.0%)
Avoiding tentacles
1(2.2%)
Containment: CM workings should only affect the Chaote.
3(6.5%)
Preparation.
2(4.3%)
Jumping off the cliff.
1(2.2%)
Personal sanity.
5(10.9%)
Doing what needs to be done.
10(21.7%)
Getting back what has been lost.
2(4.3%)
surya

Devotional

The Five Fingered Hand of Eris is ever at work in my life.

It is before me
and behind me.

It holds my head under water until I can breathe as the fishes.

It flaps my arms futily until I can fly as the birds.
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