October 4th, 2005


"There are good days and bad days and going half-mad days. . ."

I've been drawing trees of life and sephirot and labyrinths and emanations and sketches of God's personality. I bought two more books on Judaism, one of them on mysticism and the other on Sabbatai Zevi. I checked out necklaces representing various Kabbalistic ideas at the RenFest on Saturday, yet decided not to purchase.

A thought occurred to me while standing in line to get some food on Saturday. All this work in this paradigm may, very well, be over the top. It's entirely possible that I can get back what I feel I've lost though much simpler (and more Pagan) methods of piety and prayer.

I ought to confess something:

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But yesterday was a good day. I spent much of it chatting over IM with, exchanging emails with, reading letters from, or talking (in person or on the phone) with some of the most important people in my life.

Some examples:

I got into my office and found an IM waiting from Erien. In between customers and tickets, we had a wonderful, if short, conversation.

I saw singingwren and mistw02 briefly at lunch for a short chat with both and a flip through a Maxim magazine with the former.

I came home to not one but five letters from shizukagozen, which I then puzzled through the order of and I *think* I managed to read them in order. They're amazing letters, the kind you cherish for years and years. (And she only misspelled one word, go her!)

Tina came home shortly after that, and we made plans to go see Star Wars Ep. III. She'd never seen it, so we had dinner together and waited for the showtime to roll around.

While waiting for the night to sufficiently advance so that we weren't bumming around Sawmill and Bethel for four hours, healing_coyote called, and we chatted for a good hour until her hunger finally won out and she had to go eat.

Add to this that I got to converse with various other people, from jadewaterflame to perlgirlju, and you have a winning combination for a good day.