January 26th, 2006

surya

Just a stranger on a bus, tryin' to make his way home. . .

This morning (well, perhaps closer to mid-day), I was alerted to the crash in Gainesville that occurred last night by jenarael. Sometimes, I ignore links like that, and don't click on them, but this time I did. And I saw a name that I found familiar: Tina Mann.

A few of you from PSA will remember the Tina Mann who attended PSA our freshman year. Before you panic, I've found out that it's not the same Tina Mann, but a different one. But I spent several minutes today reading and re-reading the details of the accident and looking at various pictures online to find that out. It was extremely disconcerting.

Anyway, the accident is a huge tragedy for a small town, but I admit that I feel relief. I am relieved to know that it was not someone I know. I am relieved to know that my own fear was unfounded.

Sometimes, I wonder if I should feel differently about this? I don't much feel for the parents or the children. I'm just happy it didn't hit me. I'm not ashamed of that, and maybe that makes me wonder more.

Who knows? But I do this with most tragedies. Some will remember my reaction to the Tsunami in 2004. I wasn't very public about my feelings about Katrina on the whole.

It's not that I don't believe that it affects me: I'm a Chaote. Everything affects everything (except when it doesn't). So why doesn't it seem to affect me? I certainly believe it does, and there's probably some evidence, but I don't see it. Am I conveniently blind? Blind by choice? Blind by ignorance? Who knows.

But at the end of the day, it doesn't register.

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