April 4th, 2005
|05:27 pm - Patronage|
When I joined ADF four years ago, I began searching for my Patrons. Patron number one was easy to find: Eris seduced me with a smile and a kiss.
Patron number two was much harder to locate, though. I knew he was there from the very beginning, but I didn't know who he was.
Every so often, a glimpse of this god would play across my imagination. Often, his visage was dark, as if he stood in shadow or my vision was blurred.
I studied intently to learn who this might be, working through numerous possibilities.
First, I sought a relationship with Odin, but not only did this bring a total lack of response, I also quickly realized that Odin was not a god for me.
Next, I had a short conversation with Thor, and again I found that relationship to be tepid at best.
For a time following this, I moved onto a rather fruitful relationship with the Dagdha. I worked very closely with the Good God for a few months, but eventually found that this deity was simply not right; even though he fit some needs very well, there were other needs he could not fulfill. We amicably decided to part ways.
Finally, I realized that I needed to follow my heart and open to the cultural Gods who called out to me for so long: the continental Celtic deities. Here, I began to work with Cernunnos.
I purchased a necklace of him in the famous cauldron pose, arms orans and legs bent. I wore this for a while, but found that while a spark existed, it was not the bright light of Patronage.
And so I removed the necklace. I few weeks later, Esus found me, stepping out of the shadows to call me home.
And at home I now am.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "Brahma Fear", -JB
I just wanted to say that your little blue cockroaches are cute.
With all your purple they looked blue to me, although I should have known... but I was tired too so :P
I have purple on my page?
Either your eyes or mine are messed up, I think.
Yes, it's a bluey-purple background. At least, it is on my computer.
thanks muchly for sharing.
i agree 'bout the cockroaches.
np :) With the Patronage requirement gone from the DP, we have less literature on it. I like to occasionally bring it up :)
out of curiousity, why was it removed?
For the very simple fact that 1 year isn't nearly long enough to actually find a patron, much less build a relationship with one. Lots of people were unhappy at having to have a Patron nownownow and people were rushing into things.
In the end, it was a good thing to remove. They replaced it with "personal religion", which is a much better way to put it.
yeah, I can see that becoming an anxiety thing.
If I get onto IM later, maybe we can chat about patronage. I've got a shitload of stuff to do between now and whenever I get home, so it may be later for me.
Yay time difference!!
An inspiring, happy story. :)
It's slightly simplified, but basically how it went :)