April 27th, 2005
|01:27 pm - Speaking and scheduling and loads of other strangeness|
So this week started out with the ending of Trillium, full of knife fighting monkeys and good friends (and better sandwiches). When I came back to work on Monday after driving through an all-day snowstorm with my co-conspirators, I found an email in my in-box.
I've been asked to do a speaking engagement at Columbus College of Art and Desgin, dealing particularly with Paganism and with ADF. That gives me about 3 days to put together a full presentation on Neo-Paganism.
Anyway, that engagement is for Thursday in Crane Hall at CCAD. At 7 PM.
"Oh, crap!" I think. "That's the same time as the Grove liturgy meeting!"
So I sit around on this for a while, trying to figure out what to do. Do I move the liturgy meeting up one day? Oh, damn, there's another email that makes that impossible, one from singingwren that indicates that PSA has a presentation to do on Wednesday, and I did say I'd do that.
Oh, and let's not forget that I'm re-writing part of Sunday's Beltaine rite, getting ready to perform the Jimmy Buffett rite at Desert Magic, as well as presenting an elaborate thing on Chaos Magic.
And somewhere in all that, I'd really, really like to spend a bit of time with my girlfriend. You know, just a little?
Finally, I took stock of myself. I decided that what I want the Grove to have is not a Senior Druid who has to do everything. This isn't a selfish desire, really. Instead, it's a realization that what I do in the Grove does not have to be "be everywhere at once," but more "be there as often as possible, and be a good public face to the Grove."
I'm not the leader of the Grove, not really. What I settled on is that I'm really just a member who does a lot of the work. That's what the officers in this Grove are. Heck, our election process last year was incredibly informal . . . We didn't even just rubberstamp them. We just turned the checkbook over.
And this is what I wanted all along.
I don't hold this Grove together by presence or charisma or force of arms. No, the Grove holds itself together because we're dedicated to one another, and to our own vision of what we're doing. That's a beautiful thing. We show up. We attend. If we're feeling crappy, tired, or rushed, we still make time for it. It's a beautiful thing.
As much as I try to be there for my Grove, I'll never make it to everything. One day I'll come down with some modified genetic version of an Asian bird flu from picking up a hanky some Al-Quada officer dropped at my table and I won't get to a ritual. It'll be some last minute thing and I'll have to succumb. What makes this okay is that I know that my Grove has some of the most reliable people in ADF in it.
It's good to have dependable people who can fill in for me. It shows that I'm getting the Grove to a place that they don't need me, which is my ultimate goal. I have this thing about wanting to be obsolete. I did this when I worked tech support: I'd try to educate the customer and show them exactly how to fix their own machine. I don't want people to necessarily depend on me. That's not an ideal relationship at all.
So to know that romandruid and tanrinia can step in and take care of something like a liturgy meeting means a lot to me. Heck, watching mistw02 plan out her own ritual was great. I love enthusiasm and a willingness to work.
It's allowed me to take the time to go do that part of my job which is "face to the masses", to show what the Grove is about (and in this case, also Neo-Paganism in general), and to get more people to our Beltaine rite.
Thanks, guys. You mean a lot to me. Here's "the member who does a lot of stuff" (and accidental Senior Druid) signing off.
Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: "The Wind Cries Mary", -JB
So, like, you're doing the CCAD thing tomorrow, then?
See you tonight. :)
Yep. Tomorrow, 7 PM. Apparently the building is on or near the corner of Cleveland and Gay, under some sort of huge red sculpture, which I assume is either the ugly-ass "ART" thing they have, or the ugly-ass walkway across the street they have.
"Ugly-ass"? You must be using some meaning of this word that I'm not familiar with. Anyway, barring any unforeseen circumstances, I should be there tomorrow.
Well, "art" and "ugly-ass" are generally synonymous to me. So are "useless" and "eyesore". It's hard for me to derive pleasure from viewing most "art" from the past century or so.
Modern "art" has a tendency to make me shake my head and think, "WTF?" Years ago, I went on a gallery hop ... they had these cut pieces of rock glass selling for 10s of THOUSANDS of dollars. Not cut into interesting shapes, or anything, just cut pieces of crystal. I remember laughing out loud in the shop and getting all sorts of nasty looks. Fucking idiots.
It's the only way to fly, really :)
(i.e. better than by the seat of one's pants)
|Date:||April 27th, 2005 05:48 pm (UTC)|| |
Re: All right. I'll bite.
If I knew that, I'd probably be a rich man. Or perhaps it wouldn't be so funny.
But I admit, I don't.
Can anyone else explain? Or would anyone care to conjecture?
|Date:||April 27th, 2005 06:20 pm (UTC)|| |
You should just ride up to CCAD- buck-naked save for a quiver- on a giant warhorse, pepper their common with arrows, give a quick laugh and shout something crazy about "Lucifer's brides," and ride out whooping it up.
Who's to argue? It'll be no weirder than a rabbit giving away chocolate to celebrate the death and rebirth of God. Hooray!
Hehe. A good point, that.
Oh, I gave styskel
the CD I burned for you, as I figured he was more likely to see you than I was in the near future.
Go beat him up and take it if he doesn't give it up.
I get to help beat ryan up. Because if I have help, I obviously won't injure myself.
Crane hall, huh? Cool. :)
Good luck with that, your presentation looked great. Don't forget to bring any flyers you have tonight!
Good call reminding me. My memory isn't all that grand. :)
Realizations like that are great. It's nice to be the every-man (or woman) but it's not very likely.
Anyway, thanks for the chat this afternoon.
actually, dude you make it easy for us to pitch in. GROUPHUG!
Okay, I don't see a Crane Hall on the CCAD map. Did they mean the Loann Crane Center for Design (I'm assuming)? If so, do you know the room number?