September 8th, 2005
|10:56 am - Fully awake, fully alive. Or so the pink elephant with a halo assures me.|
There are some things from last week that I've considered posting, off and on. They're overly personal, but that's not why I waffle on posting them. Mostly, I waffle on it because retyping them seems dishonest in this case, like they should lie there and rot on the page, as a lot of the things in them simply no longer apply. Some things do, I suppose, but most things don't.
None of them mentions anyone specifically. . . At least, not negatively. They're a remarkable combination of the positive and negative, a strange feeling of desperation in some cases that is tempered by an almost invisible hope. The things written are kind of random and extremely diverse. Nothing really flows into itself, but as a whole it's an interesting and complete picture.
So today, as I look at them, I wonder: let them rot, or bring them out?
I dunno. I'm unsure. I'm feeling pretty good, and I'm not actually embarrassed about the thoughts. I'm just unsure that their meaning, their being involves publication. I don't worry that they'll bring up feelings or anything like that. I think I'll be thinking this over during lunch.
Why do you read my journal?
Feel free to comment if that isn't enough space.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "Miss You So Badly", -JB
Don't know how much space is there, but it's probably not enough. I read your journal for a few reasons. First off, your on my friend's page I have a little OCD when it come to my morning computer ritual (web sites I check and read in a specific order every morning). But as to why I actually read all the words you type I guess there are three reasons.
1. Keeps me up with what is going on in your life
2. Almost always makes me smile, your writing style and wit are a guaranteed chuckle in the morning.
3. As much as I smile, your posts also make me think, evaluating my self, my life, my beliefs as you continue to explore yours.
So there you have it.
Laughter is always a good reason, and if I can make ya think, even better :)
But does the pink elephant dance?
What pink elephant doesn't?
I am rather happy, in general :)
One of these days, I'll make it out that direction for a festival or something.
|Date:||September 8th, 2005 07:25 pm (UTC)|| |
and.... well, it's just plain entertaining. :)
That's the most important point :)
You have a facinating brain. I could watch it for hours. :)
It doesn't do much but squish around in the skull, I'm afraid.
Not if you're looking at it the right way. :)
..don't have to bring them out for us to read, but "letting something rot" generally sounds bad. it's sound like these may be things/feelings you should explore, if only for your own benefit. if shareing them with friends helps, yay. but i imagine jsut getting them out might help more.
|Date:||September 9th, 2005 06:22 pm (UTC)|| |
It does appear that it's coming out.
Pink elephants are a excellent sign of being fully awake and alive;)