September 22nd, 2005
|10:37 am - Lifting Up the Shards|
I've come up with something, a chaos working to deal with certain things in my life.
The problem is, as I plan it, it's becoming more and more clear just how dangerous it is to me personally, and my mental health in particular.
While I admit that it's quite terrifying to think about the implications of it, the possibilities and potential for growth are simply amazing.
The issue, of course, is method. How do I get where I need to go? TOPY would tell me the obvious: "See a cliff, jump off."
There is a lot of work left to do before I decide if this is something I can do, or even need to do.
I promise: there are no tentacles involved. Well, I can't say that there won't be, but I'm certainly not planning any. This is a totally different paradigm.
On a side note, I had an encounter with Eris' mother the other day, and I have a new presentation in the works for PSA or an ADF festival.
What should be my single most central concern?
Making sure the shit don't spatter on others
Containment: CM workings should only affect the Chaote.
Jumping off the cliff.
Doing what needs to be done.
Getting back what has been lost.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "Burn That Bridge", -JB
It may or may not be. I am very concerned about affecting others with this particular working, I admit. In fact, the affect on others, if I judge it to be sufficient enough ("enough" being undefined), may be a very good reason to pull the plug on this working.
I think that simply writing it out entirely will provide a reasonable amount of "fixing".
we have a motto in our Grove (yeah, I know, we have a bunch of 'em)
"Not my ass-whupping"
many of us have gone through periods we affectionatly refer to as "the watusi" and sometimes the flailing and thrashing can whisk others in or splatter on their shoes. Thus was our mantra created. Every so often, usually in ritual when someone is making some oath that we can all see is gonna sign them up for a round of watusi, we will all lovingly remind the gods and spirits and anything else listening in that, "It ain't my ass-whuppin'!"
Sounds like your firends might need to borrow that.
It may be a good thing for them to learn, yeah. I could be more careful, too :)
|Date:||September 22nd, 2005 08:05 pm (UTC)|| |
duly borrowed :D