September 22nd, 2005
|10:37 am - Lifting Up the Shards|
I've come up with something, a chaos working to deal with certain things in my life.
The problem is, as I plan it, it's becoming more and more clear just how dangerous it is to me personally, and my mental health in particular.
While I admit that it's quite terrifying to think about the implications of it, the possibilities and potential for growth are simply amazing.
The issue, of course, is method. How do I get where I need to go? TOPY would tell me the obvious: "See a cliff, jump off."
There is a lot of work left to do before I decide if this is something I can do, or even need to do.
I promise: there are no tentacles involved. Well, I can't say that there won't be, but I'm certainly not planning any. This is a totally different paradigm.
On a side note, I had an encounter with Eris' mother the other day, and I have a new presentation in the works for PSA or an ADF festival.
What should be my single most central concern?
Making sure the shit don't spatter on others
Containment: CM workings should only affect the Chaote.
Jumping off the cliff.
Doing what needs to be done.
Getting back what has been lost.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "Burn That Bridge", -JB
She was stuffing her face with pizza, when I saw her. Details are forthcoming. It was at Tommy's, just north of Lane at Neil Ave.