Well, tomorrow you'll be even more familiar with it than today, so perhaps an avenue will present itself to you that simply hasn't yet.

I don't know. Would you mind telling an inquiring (*cough NOSY cough*) friend more about what you've figured out sometime?

Remember, people noticing it is not necessarily a problem... of course, now they might KNOW it's the result of magic, which is a bit of shame, but then again, maybe not. It's just a matter of if them "noticing" it entails their relationships with you being changed against their will or without warning, or if them "noticing" it simply means them sensing a change in your personal behaviour or something like that.

Che, I suppose it's frankly just a difficult choice. Most of ignorant little me says you need to do it and it's important that you do it WITHOUT considering how other people will react, because your ability to do it without outside influence is utterly tantamount. Last time I talked to you, YOU told me YOU would be making the decisions as opposed to a deity, etc. It sounds now like you are in danger of inadvertantly giving that control to other people. If you are making too many allowances and allowing too many alternate judgments in, how will you know what goes where?

But, of course, the thing is sharing that control is not necessarily bad. I mean, the thing that worries me most is, what if YOU don't really know which one goes where? Your actions will obviously be tainted (and simultaneously clarified) by your personal experiences, so outside considerations would both clean and stain what you are doing. Are you confident that you can separate things clearly without accidentally putting something that could be good (but whose potential good you do not yet see) somewhere where it should not go?

I suppose the other thing I wonder about is, is it for all practical intents and purposes irreversible? And, in creating black and white out of grey in some areas, do you do it in all? Maybe you could start it in small segments. But then, I don't know what you've worked out, so maybe that wouldn't work.

I derno. Like I said, most of me say that you need to do it (probably the part of me that could use a degree of that myself) but the rest of me wants to know more about it first. :x

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There will be a very long LJ update on Monday that will explain the cosmology. It's not like it's a secret, it's just freakin' difficult to explain.

The difficulty with making decisions is that this particular working involves a *lot* of darkness, and one man has already failed to come out of it bearing the promised shards.

And no, I'm not at all confident that I can tell the luminous from the base.

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Haha, good luck explaining it without sounding either cracked out, fluffy, or too smart for us. But then, you've done some pretty funky stuff in the past, so I'm sure people will be able to figure it out.

And I don't know what to tell you about the difficulty... there will be lots. And if you don't know how to swim in it already, you'll either have to learn or drown.

Like that would stop you.

Maybe you should share your control with a deity, guide, person, etc, over what should fall and what should remain in the light?

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I don't know if I can do this and be Pagan at the time. That's another issue. So it's entirely possible that I won't have any Patrons with me.

Though it's an issue I'll avoid if it's possible.

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I realize the paradigm isn't pagan, so I wasn't implying a pagan god. I mean, the Morrigan is good for things like that (but you don't like her :P) and as far as actual judgment calls I could see Esus being extremely comforting and helpful, but I meant more of some other form of spirit that would fit that paradigm, like Yawheh (or IAO, because I'm a fan...?) After all, man was not in charge of those decisions to begin with. God knew what was bad and what was good.

The question is, how deeply do you trust the entities you work with in other paradigms? I'd say you'd need to trust in him completely in order for his choices to carry any weight, but then, once you step OUT Of that paradigm, any changes made will remain, so you have to trust that they will be good ones even outside that paradigm. Which is tricky-ass business.

Maybe you should just sacrifice a white cock raised by a first-born black mule who ate nothing but candied scarabs all its life and pour oil on a young virgin boy beforehand, just in case. :P

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When I work in other paradigms, there is no reason not to trust these entities. YHVH is just as reliable when I'm being a Jewish mystic as Esus is when I'm being Pagan.

Besides, things like Angels are pretty predictable.

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Maybe you should just sacrifice a white cock raised by a first-born black mule who ate nothing but candied scarabs all its life and pour oil on a young virgin boy beforehand, just in case.

Are we talking about chronarchy's working or your fantasies?

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My fantasies, of course. Who DOESN'T dream about sacrificial animals and little boys coated in olive oil...?

*laughs*

Actually, it's a reference to how they work magic in the Greek Magical Papyri. They always use these RIDICULOUS sacrifices that are pretty much nuts... and that was an example of one, more or less. But, I'm sure there are plenty of people out there who would enjoy that.

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