October 10th, 2005
|02:03 pm - The self is like a diamond as big as the Ritz|
Reading Cosmic Trigger, I came down with something. It's one of those things about RAW's work: it's got infectious ideas. I may not be convinced that these ideas are good, but they certainly resonate.
Anyway, RAW partitions off his personality into several facets. He seems to define them by a captialized word: Shaman, Skeptic, Mystic, and Poet.
I never planned to pick this up. At some point, though, probably about two or four months ago, I started doing this. I talk about things, though, I've begun to slip into this (rather useful) method of describing what's going on.
The Magician, for instance, is the one who has no fear, who laughs. He's not as strong as he used to be, but he's my first line of defense when things go wrong. He tests the waters when he knows there are pirhanas in the river, dances with tentacles, and sings in the rain.
The Shaman rarely bothers to come out, but his interest is perked by certain things. He's never been a big part of me, really. Well, not since I realized that DJ Conway was full of more shit than anyone I'd ever read.
The Scholar cuts through the bullshit, and is probably half the reason that the Shaman went into hiding. The Scholar pointed out early on that Shamanism has no place in Celtic religion as I practice it, and so the Shaman decided he wasn't going to be very important either. These pieces can fight it out, too, and sometimes come to understandings.
The Historian is slightly different than the Scholar, and he gets hung up on little hour-long documentaries on the Falkland Islands war, recreating and reenacting things in an accurate manner, and any map that shows troop movements (regardless of battle or time period).
The Priest turned tail and hid recently. He's afraid of coming out. Of all the roles that are played within me, this one has had the hardest time with everything recently. Gods, I want him back.
There are other parts of me, more complicated and less complicated parts. But for now, this is a good start.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: "Everybody's On the Run", -JB
no, but this one is pretty rude, so i thought i'd ask :-)
... my first thought on reading this was that i totally get it, because i do it to some extent.
now for the rude part. your magician self can be a real asshole sometimes, perhaps not on purpose? i don't know.
but, that probably means you are effective.
I stopped worrying about being an asshole when I realized that, honestly, it's a perception issue that no magician can really clear up very well.Why Are Chaos Magicians Such Assholes?
is an interesting text on the subject.
But it's not because we're jerks, really, but because we really seem to be. Most of the time, assholeness is a tool we use, another belief system.
And sometimes, it's a defense mechanism.
anyway, just thought i'd say that, 'cause ... well, it'd be eating me up like acid for an hour or so before i forgot it. better i say it than suffer for an hour.
i am looking forward to reading that article, thanks for sharing.
i guess it depends ... i'd have to say no. that could be because i am quite often oblivious.
I only know one magician (excluding current company). He is a Chaos Magician and not an asshole. I'll have to go read the text linked above. "What is an asshole" is likely a new thread so I won't hijack this one :)