October 10th, 2005
|02:03 pm - The self is like a diamond as big as the Ritz|
Reading Cosmic Trigger, I came down with something. It's one of those things about RAW's work: it's got infectious ideas. I may not be convinced that these ideas are good, but they certainly resonate.
Anyway, RAW partitions off his personality into several facets. He seems to define them by a captialized word: Shaman, Skeptic, Mystic, and Poet.
I never planned to pick this up. At some point, though, probably about two or four months ago, I started doing this. I talk about things, though, I've begun to slip into this (rather useful) method of describing what's going on.
The Magician, for instance, is the one who has no fear, who laughs. He's not as strong as he used to be, but he's my first line of defense when things go wrong. He tests the waters when he knows there are pirhanas in the river, dances with tentacles, and sings in the rain.
The Shaman rarely bothers to come out, but his interest is perked by certain things. He's never been a big part of me, really. Well, not since I realized that DJ Conway was full of more shit than anyone I'd ever read.
The Scholar cuts through the bullshit, and is probably half the reason that the Shaman went into hiding. The Scholar pointed out early on that Shamanism has no place in Celtic religion as I practice it, and so the Shaman decided he wasn't going to be very important either. These pieces can fight it out, too, and sometimes come to understandings.
The Historian is slightly different than the Scholar, and he gets hung up on little hour-long documentaries on the Falkland Islands war, recreating and reenacting things in an accurate manner, and any map that shows troop movements (regardless of battle or time period).
The Priest turned tail and hid recently. He's afraid of coming out. Of all the roles that are played within me, this one has had the hardest time with everything recently. Gods, I want him back.
There are other parts of me, more complicated and less complicated parts. But for now, this is a good start.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: "Everybody's On the Run", -JB
I know what you mean, but I wouldn't worry too much. I sometimes do the same thing, but it is only to put things in perspective and not completely isolate one from the other. It helps me understand my own motives, or suppose, or at least wink and pretend I do. ;)
My sides are not so intelligent and focused as Mike's (HA, I WISH I had a scholar ;P), but it's the same idea. It's all about different approaches we take toward life, different choices we face. It's helpful to learn which aspect of you makes which decisions, because then when you make your choices you can learn to cut through bias and hear what ALL of the sides are trying to say.
For example, my Martial Artist side has this bizzarre, stern, samurai-code thing going on, one that completely clashes with the rest of my personality. It smacks of sharp discipline, is demanding and unforgiving, and somehow holds ridiculously high standards for everyone (including myself) while remaining (to the rest of me) disgustingly humble. This is the side of me, I've realized, that really steps up when it's time to make progress. When I need to get lots of work done, or when I need to lead in difficult situations, the Martial Artist always strides forward and sharply issues an order. I used to let it basically take control in all leadership situations, seeking to control progress with a firm hand while appearing simultaneously capable and self-assured (and thus intimidating) and humble and down-to-earth.
I still tend to do this a lot, but once I REALIZED it was the Martial Artist in me I learned to let other sides speak too. For example, the Friend in me realizes that there are times when standards are appropriate and times when they are not. The Magician in me acknowledges that there are times when being modest and self-deprecating is harmful and foolish. Of course, the Magician, the Friend, and the Martial Artist are not DIFFERENT personalities; they are simply different sets of experiences, different semi-categorized tendencies toward how to handle a situation. If I were taking things in one context, for example, I would handle it more like a Friend than a Martial Artist... it is not that the Friend side of my personality is taking over, it is just that I am tapping into the attributes the archetype "Friend" embodies, which are more useful to me than those of the Magician in that circumstance.
It is true that these sides often clash, but until Mike starts arguing loudly with himself and letting each side completely take over I think we are all good. There's nothing wrong with compartmentalizing your personality as long as you realize that these compartments are not complete, and that each one is somehow linked or connected ot the other. They are distinct but not separte, I guess you could say. A
fter all, most of us have way more than ONE motive for doing the things we do, and therefore I think it wise to analyze the distinguish between the sides of our selves that have different views.
I see, and this is probably something I do to some extent (though I don't give my personality aspects formal names and identities). I might behave one way with family and friends, another way with co-workers, and yet another way with clients, etc.
Maybe the key question here is whether you can get these aspects working together and pooling their resources instead of being at odds with each other. If they set aside their differences and combine their talents like Voltron, what could they not accomplish?
*grins* When I name my Magician "Bob" and my Priest "Skippy", then we'll worry about formal names :)
Voltron is a good analogy. . . Except that these pieces can't break off and run their lions around different planets :)
I'm sorry to hear that.
Clearly, some of us are way more evolved than others. ;)
|Date:||October 10th, 2005 09:55 pm (UTC)|| |
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I don't actually give these aspects names and identities either. Because then, that WOULD be fairly schizophrenic. ("Sorry, that was Jubilee talking.")
You have, however, suggested an acceptable method of dealing with them... like Voltron! Oh, the memories. I agree with this.
I have to admit, though, even though it stilts the metaphor, I would rather think of them as Ninja Turtles. I mean, I have all these different characters (we'll include the rat and the babe) who don't always get along, but if I put them together they can make awesome things happen. Especially when you add pizza and roaming around in tunnels. :)
|Date:||October 10th, 2005 10:39 pm (UTC)|| |
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Oh, and when you get right down to it, they all embody different personality traits, yes, but when you take off their head-bands and weapons, they are pretty much the same.
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Yes, but then you get the evil Shredder using mind control rays to turn the turtles against each other, etc. ;) But I definitely get the metaphor. I used to have quite an extensive network of cardboard box and duct tape sewers for the turtles to wage their battles in. While most kids would rush to the toy aisle at Wal-mart (which I certainly did, too), I would also rush to the hardware section for more duct tape.