If you submitted an email to me via the CGI email form on my website on Nov. 10, 2005, stating that you were going to commit suicide as a joke, you'd do well to let me know who you are before I find out through other channels. Just because you can make a post anonymously and scare the shit out of me does not mean you should.
It is not funny. I am not laughing. I will be much more forgiving if I hear it from you than if I hear it from my webhost.
If it was not a joke, and you didn't go through with it, please, please let me know and I swear to all the Gods I know that I'll get you some help, won't pass judgement, and will be there for you. All you have to do is ask. You know how to get ahold of me.