A few of you from PSA will remember the Tina Mann who attended PSA our freshman year. Before you panic, I've found out that it's not the same Tina Mann, but a different one. But I spent several minutes today reading and re-reading the details of the accident and looking at various pictures online to find that out. It was extremely disconcerting.
Anyway, the accident is a huge tragedy for a small town, but I admit that I feel relief. I am relieved to know that it was not someone I know. I am relieved to know that my own fear was unfounded.
Sometimes, I wonder if I should feel differently about this? I don't much feel for the parents or the children. I'm just happy it didn't hit me. I'm not ashamed of that, and maybe that makes me wonder more.
Who knows? But I do this with most tragedies. Some will remember my reaction to the Tsunami in 2004. I wasn't very public about my feelings about Katrina on the whole.
It's not that I don't believe that it affects me: I'm a Chaote. Everything affects everything (except when it doesn't). So why doesn't it seem to affect me? I certainly believe it does, and there's probably some evidence, but I don't see it. Am I conveniently blind? Blind by choice? Blind by ignorance? Who knows.
But at the end of the day, it doesn't register.
Is this entry true?
It is partially true
It is partially false
I don't know