A few of you from PSA will remember the Tina Mann who attended PSA our freshman year. Before you panic, I've found out that it's not the same Tina Mann, but a different one. But I spent several minutes today reading and re-reading the details of the accident and looking at various pictures online to find that out. It was extremely disconcerting.
Anyway, the accident is a huge tragedy for a small town, but I admit that I feel relief. I am relieved to know that it was not someone I know. I am relieved to know that my own fear was unfounded.
Sometimes, I wonder if I should feel differently about this? I don't much feel for the parents or the children. I'm just happy it didn't hit me. I'm not ashamed of that, and maybe that makes me wonder more.
Who knows? But I do this with most tragedies. Some will remember my reaction to the Tsunami in 2004. I wasn't very public about my feelings about Katrina on the whole.
It's not that I don't believe that it affects me: I'm a Chaote. Everything affects everything (except when it doesn't). So why doesn't it seem to affect me? I certainly believe it does, and there's probably some evidence, but I don't see it. Am I conveniently blind? Blind by choice? Blind by ignorance? Who knows.
But at the end of the day, it doesn't register.
Is this entry true?