January 26th, 2006
|01:05 pm - Just a stranger on a bus, tryin' to make his way home. . .|
This morning (well, perhaps closer to mid-day), I was alerted to the crash in Gainesville that occurred last night by jenarael. Sometimes, I ignore links like that, and don't click on them, but this time I did. And I saw a name that I found familiar: Tina Mann.
A few of you from PSA will remember the Tina Mann who attended PSA our freshman year. Before you panic, I've found out that it's not the same Tina Mann, but a different one. But I spent several minutes today reading and re-reading the details of the accident and looking at various pictures online to find that out. It was extremely disconcerting.
Anyway, the accident is a huge tragedy for a small town, but I admit that I feel relief. I am relieved to know that it was not someone I know. I am relieved to know that my own fear was unfounded.
Sometimes, I wonder if I should feel differently about this? I don't much feel for the parents or the children. I'm just happy it didn't hit me. I'm not ashamed of that, and maybe that makes me wonder more.
Who knows? But I do this with most tragedies. Some will remember my reaction to the Tsunami in 2004. I wasn't very public about my feelings about Katrina on the whole.
It's not that I don't believe that it affects me: I'm a Chaote. Everything affects everything (except when it doesn't). So why doesn't it seem to affect me? I certainly believe it does, and there's probably some evidence, but I don't see it. Am I conveniently blind? Blind by choice? Blind by ignorance? Who knows.
But at the end of the day, it doesn't register.
Is this entry true?
It is partially true
It is partially false
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: "Why Don't We Get Drunk And Screw?", -JB
It could very well have been me. I was inexplicably tired when I got up this morning. It's possible that I was sleepwalking through a New York hospital.
It would at least explain the gunshot wound. . .
As for handsome, yes: it's the hat that makes me look good. My natural looks need a lot of improvement before they can class as "handsome"
Well, I appreciate. I imagine one day I'll get to meet you. Then you can try and puzzle out how I got those pictures to look so good while only being half-passable as a human being :)
I don't feel anything from situations like that either. Its just too remote from my every day world. I have my own problems without taking on theirs too. I remember being amazed that some people can take things liek that so personally that 10,000 miles away they feel it so hard they have to cry over it. I just don't understand. Of course, part of my thing is that I'm a trained observer, I'm actually supposed to remove myself so I can observe objectively. Is this training, or did my education take advantage of a trait natural to me?
I do similar things. Many emotions that I feel have the added weight of me watching them closely.
Of course, I tend to look at them from a state of amusement rather than objectivity. . .
hehehe, my silly gene often over rides my objectivity
Now that I think about it, it's possible that my silly gene is my objective gene. . .
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
'cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
(the lyrics following the lyrics you used as a subject line, if you were wondering. 'cause I like Joan Osborne songs (: )
I think I only know one Joan Osborne song. This one. :)
She has a few other good ones. Maybe sometime if I remember I'll burn them to CD for you.
I read the entry. Yes, it's tragic, but... why does it matter that some of the kids who died were adopted? Is that supposed to make it even more tragic or something?
I imagine it's an attempt to get at more information. I'm not certain it's irrelevant, though: it does explain why they're all brothers and sisters or whatever, yet they come with different names.
again, you lack the "i don't care, i just go with the flow" option that someoen else mention :D i know you don't care, but i felt the need to point it out cos ... well, it's either that or work on my exam :D
It's not that I don't care. It's that I think it's not useful to what I'm looking for. :)
It did affect you.
You wrote this entire LJ because of it.
Perhaps I wrote an LJ about it, but I disagree on the affect, I think
'Affect' does not necessarily mean sadden or upset. If it left an impression you, it affected you. If it made you think, it made you queston anything... then it affected you. How and why is whres the debate lies.
Also, be wary of any ims you get from ne tonight. There are... Situations.