October 2nd, 2006
|10:39 am - Reflections on ADF's first Clergy Retreat|
The vision started with a blending and bending. The Trilathon stood at the center of my vision, the world around it swirling and yet stationary.So began my vision. ADF's Clergy Retreat this past weekend included the best and deepest trance experience and work I have done since meeting and experiencing trancework with Dr. Felcitas Goodman.
To the right of the gate stood the Earth Mother, beautiful to behold, smiling gently, adorned in reds and browns. I was astounded to realise that I had never in my life looked at the Earth Mother, through all my training and work, through five years of honouring her in all my rituals. I was awed by the beauty that radiated from her.
To the left of the gate stood Garanus, wings folded, stately. One leg was folded up, his other foot was rooted to the mud. It struck me as odd to find him in this pose, when so often I have seen him in the deep, sacred waters with one foot, and the other foot on the land. Still, the mud between his toes was the land and sea, and he was still a creature of the skies.
I bowed to the crane and asked his blessing. I knelt before the Earth Mother, smelling her scent. Both granted me entrance to the mists beyond the portal.
It may have been better.
ADF has integrated real, deep trancework into Our Druidry in a very tangible way.
The omens taken that weekend are still written on my hands. The Initiate's Program is hammered out entirely, and should be ready for students very, very soon. ADF's Core Order of Ritual is solidified. We discussed what ADF ritual *doesn't* do in concrete terms. Courses in magic, divination, and trance are now prepared. I took over 24 pages of notes in my journals regarding events this past weekend. I learned many things about liturgy and ritual, and have helped write and learned a new chant, one I hold very deer to myself.
I am, possibly, not the same person I was on Friday night, when I stepped out of the car at Tredara.
I have no doubt that the weekend was life-changing, and that my experience was deeply religious.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: "Stars on the Water", -JB
So when will we get to see the write-up of the solidified OOR? How about those new classes? Why aren't you holding a hotdog bun in your hand in that picture? Are we there yet?
So many questions.
1) OoR: soon. It should be officially posted within the next couple of days. If anything, we opened up to things rather than closing down things.
2) Classes: They need final approval from those Clergy not present at the weekend. That'll be about a week, maybe two.
3) Hot dog bun: They're against my religion.
4) Do I have to turn this processional around?
That's wonderful. I'm incredibly happy for you.
This makes me feel very happy.
I'd like to do more trancework, but I get sort of intimidated and unsure how.
Trance 1 and Trance 2 are written. You can always take the classes now :)
Do you think they would help me, where I stand now? I can be told to 'practice' all people want, but until I know what exactly I am practicing and how to do it that doesn't help. Maybe that's why meditation was so hard. It wasn't hard with a voice guiding me down into meditation and trance, but on my own... hmm. Guess that means I've got a LOTTA work to do.
Wanna link said classes for an old chum? ;)
|Date:||October 2nd, 2006 06:44 pm (UTC)|| |
I feel deep love for all that was accomplished this weekend, even tho' I couldn't be there. It feels right, and I feel as though ADF has sealed its own fate because of it. For the first time ever, I feel that ADF has a solid foundation now, and can really grow into the future.
Strange, eh? that I can still feel that connection?
I am EXTREMELY happy to have Trance I&II finalized, and thus, the Initiate's program.
Yay, you guys!
Yes, I'll be sending you what we came up with shortly. I'm trying to get them typed up. There were some minor changes here and there to Magic 2 and Divination 2, as well, so I have to correct those, but you'll see them on the CoL very soon.
|Date:||October 2nd, 2006 07:38 pm (UTC)|| |
Hm. I don't think I am on the CoL. I thought Raven was going to add me, due to having the Ecstatic Trance SIG, but I don't think he ever did.
Oh, and I specifically mentioned the trance for you. . . Get through GSP I, and you'll get to go through it, too. . .
|Date:||October 2nd, 2006 07:39 pm (UTC)|| |
*makes face* Ah the price I have to pay......
Seriously, guess I just can't get out of that work! heheh
oooh, I can't wait for them either!
Sexy, have I got a trance for you...
ADF has integrated real, deep trancework into Our Druidry in a very tangible way.
You say that as if it's something new to ADF. :)
I've had some great trancework experiences as part of ADF, but this one was very different for me. Folks use guided trance journeys for a lot of different purposes, and you've just gotten me thinking about some of the others...
One of the first ones I remember was Paul Maurice's workshop on The Hall of the Gods, which was a way to find and learn about your patron deity. Ian has led LOTS of workshops involving trance, and Sue leads some great ones, too. One of the most vivid trance journeys I ever made was one Sue led at a Chenille Canopy retreat. Wow. I don't even have to take a deep breath or close my eyes to visualize it. More than a year after we did it. Amazing.
I know you didn't have time to get to a lot of workshops at Summerland this year, but there was trancing going on all over the place. I led a very light trance in my poetry workshop; Barbara Wright led a very deep one in her workshop (I can see how these techniques can be used in lieu of anesthesia!); and Jack led a WONDERFUL journey to explore our inner temples/altar space. (Were there more...?)
What was weird about this retreat's trance for me was its lack of detail. Oh, I knew exactly what was going on all the time, but a couple of the settings in which I found myself were very... er, *monochromatic* (if that makes sense). A timeless, shapeless, directionless, silent, still pewter-grayness was just... weird. I kept trying to see what Ian's voice was describing, but setting just wasn't the same for me. That's the first time that's ever really happened to me, and I'm surprised I wasn't more frightened about being off track or something.
Anyway, it was a cool retreat. I'm glad I went; I, too, am transformed, and it was also good to spend time in the car with you talking. We needed to do that. :)
You're right: I'm missing out on a lot of stuff by working through workshops. I gotta stop doing that :)
I think what I meant was in the key word "integrated". This is the first thing I've seen where the trancework is something that's really, definitely a solid *part* of what ADF does. Sure, people do trance, and sometimes we do workshops or the occasional ritual that involves trance, but making it a part of what all clergy do is something that is, I think, new. I could be wrong in that.
We are still working on the definition of trance within ADF, after all :)
And yeah: maybe we should travel to festivals together more often. I had fun doing DMF with you, too.
|Date:||October 3rd, 2006 12:18 am (UTC)|| |
I had fun doing DMF with you, too.
Gee, you make it sound like a menage a trois... trying to start another rumor? Who is this "DMF," anyway, and why don't I remember "doing" him? (Or was it "her"?) Dang, I gotta quit drinking so much...
Oh and Trance one (some of it, anyway) is going into the Seers program as soon as we are able to move forward on it. I can't imagine anyone would object:>)
|Date:||October 2nd, 2006 10:11 pm (UTC)|| |
Your words are deeply beautful, though I doubt they compare to the true experience. Thank you for sharing something so profoundly personal. I am again, and as always, incredibly proud of you babe! You do good work, and deserve recognition.
*laughs* That's not even the personal part. . . It's what is beyond that gate that is truly deep and meaningful. . .
|Date:||October 2nd, 2006 10:37 pm (UTC)|| |
Clearly, but still, my statement stands :p
(oh, ho! have I found another loop hole?)
Thank you for this. I feel exactly the same way.