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January 4th, 2007


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03:59 pm - Steps to a better life:
  • Step 1: Learn ASL for "Can I buy you a cup of coffee?"
  • Step 2: ?
  • Step 3: Profit!
Today's excursion into entirely different modes of experiencing communication was nigh disastrous.

Thankfully, there was a cute girl sitting next to me who kinda knew what she was doing, and was willing to help me out.

I'm in over my head with the ASL stuff, but the Chaote is kicking in.

If that little bastard weren't so rusty at existence, I might stand a chance at acing this course.

As it stands, I walked out repeating, "I will not be frightened by the fact that I can't keep up with a girl on the first day of class. I will not give in to frustration. I am not here for me. I am here for my Grove, ADF, and my co-workers. If no one sees me for ten weeks, they can deal with that."

And in a little voice at the back of my head, I was repeating something deeper and more ingrained:
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
Then I turned around and looked back at Mendenhall Lab and the girl caught my eye and waved. And damnit, there I was feeling in-over-my-head again.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: "Sail On Sailor", -JB

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From:snakesinspace
Date:January 4th, 2007 09:42 pm (UTC)
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I said it and... I got a hug from my son and a weird look from my husband.

Scientific experiments are fun!
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From:chronarchy
Date:January 4th, 2007 09:47 pm (UTC)
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Remember, it takes time. I think it took a couple of days to manifest in my LJ. :)

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