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Ár nDraíocht Féin
Three Cranes
Chaos Matrix

January 4th, 2007

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03:59 pm - Steps to a better life:
  • Step 1: Learn ASL for "Can I buy you a cup of coffee?"
  • Step 2: ?
  • Step 3: Profit!
Today's excursion into entirely different modes of experiencing communication was nigh disastrous.

Thankfully, there was a cute girl sitting next to me who kinda knew what she was doing, and was willing to help me out.

I'm in over my head with the ASL stuff, but the Chaote is kicking in.

If that little bastard weren't so rusty at existence, I might stand a chance at acing this course.

As it stands, I walked out repeating, "I will not be frightened by the fact that I can't keep up with a girl on the first day of class. I will not give in to frustration. I am not here for me. I am here for my Grove, ADF, and my co-workers. If no one sees me for ten weeks, they can deal with that."

And in a little voice at the back of my head, I was repeating something deeper and more ingrained:
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
Then I turned around and looked back at Mendenhall Lab and the girl caught my eye and waved. And damnit, there I was feeling in-over-my-head again.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: "Sail On Sailor", -JB

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Date:January 5th, 2007 12:46 am (UTC)
I can't believe this. First day of class and you're *already* charming the girls? *tsk, tsk, tsk*

Focus on the dancing hands. You are dance guild thingamagig still, right? Well now's your chance to find a practical application -- ASL is a very poetic form of hand-dancing, no? If you don't believe me, go to a concert where there is a signer on stage, and watch the signer, not the performer. I promise -- you will be entranced. It's a form of ASL that is utterly blissful to watch. I tell you, Judi Collins ain't got nuttin on the chick who signed through her performance -- I'd rather watch the latter ANY day.
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Date:January 5th, 2007 03:59 pm (UTC)
No, no. They're charming me :)

And I agree about the ASL interpreter. Totally cooler.

But I think I realized a parallel I can use to get past the issues I've been having. More on that in a bit.

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