January 4th, 2007
|03:59 pm - Steps to a better life:|
Today's excursion into entirely different modes of experiencing communication was nigh disastrous.
- Step 1: Learn ASL for "Can I buy you a cup of coffee?"
- Step 2: ?
- Step 3: Profit!
Thankfully, there was a cute girl sitting next to me who kinda knew what she was doing, and was willing to help me out.
I'm in over my head with the ASL stuff, but the Chaote is kicking in.
If that little bastard weren't so rusty at existence, I might stand a chance at acing this course.
As it stands, I walked out repeating, "I will not be frightened by the fact that I can't keep up with a girl on the first day of class. I will not give in to frustration. I am not here for me. I am here for my Grove, ADF, and my co-workers. If no one sees me for ten weeks, they can deal with that."
And in a little voice at the back of my head, I was repeating something deeper and more ingrained:
I must not fear.Then I turned around and looked back at Mendenhall Lab and the girl caught my eye and waved. And damnit, there I was feeling in-over-my-head again.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: "Sail On Sailor", -JB
I wouldn't ask you to apologize :) That'd be silly :)
I tend to look at it as "I have a girlfriend, not a womanfriend; thus I am likely to refer to my girlfriend as a 'girl' over a 'woman'." I also suspect that it has to do with the number of women I know who complain of things like "girl problems" or talk about their "girlfriends" or simply say "go girl!"
I understand your "manipulative tools" argument: I would never call a black man a "boy," for instance, but at the same time I would be very likely to call him a "guy" rather than a "man".
I just don't use those words very often, "man" and "woman". The concepts belong firmly to people I have no emotional attachment to. They're non-thinking, non-feeling entities to me.
Then there's that whole group of women who hate being called a "lady". . . I've almost entirely dropped that from my vocabulary, though the collective "ladies" is still strong when the word "guys" would be appropriate, except that everyone's female.
Besides, this isn't "dangerous". It's a thought experiment gone horribly awry :)
well, i also hate the terms 'girlfriend' and 'boyfriend' whether they're used for romantic couples or just friends who happen to be one sex or another.
womanfriend and manfriend just sound silly.
lover is a whole different thing.
i used to call vitaminJ my partner, and now spouse or husband. but there needs to be a better term for "yes, i am dating this adult person quite a bit, but it's none of your business if we are doing it (lovers)." haven't quite hit on that yet.
Lady is a hold over from chivalry which contrary to being all 'knights in shining armor' romaticism was really not-so-thinly-veiled sexism (and racism and classism, but i won't get into that, as it's about a 300 word rant :)
none of which answers whether or not this was at OSU :)
Ah, it is, indeed, at OSU. It's a for-credit class.
Why not "I'm involved with him"?
too wordy. i'm all about the brevity in addition to clarity and accuracy.
besides, what does 'involved with' mean? i'm involved with many folks in many ways >:)
I get it. And I am amused.