June 21st, 2008
|05:03 pm - Frustration|
Some days, I get frustrated with my progress through the ADF Clergy Training Program. It's hard (and it just gets harder as it goes on). I just stood up, my brain hurting from trying to manage answering a question, and walked around in a circle, not really knowing why I got up in the first place. There's a specter of fear in my mind telling me that I just can't answer them, and that I'm simply not good enough.
Right now, I'm stuck on Divination 2. There, I need to provide nine divinations I've done for others. Right now, I only have access to notes for three. I cannot find others (though I know I've done others).
So, if anyone needs any sort of divination work done, please let me know. It would aid me greatly to do some divination for you.
I'm within two questions of finishing Divination 2 and one question of finishing Trance 1. I have nearly all the information I need to finish the biggest question in Trance 2, as well, but actually doing it is really hard for me. It's so hard for me to see the end but to feel like I simply cannot get there. I feel like Zeno's frog.
Well, back to work: complaining about it doesn't make it finish itself. I really, really want to finish Trance 1 today, and get a solid start on Trance 2. Perseverance is the virtue of today.
(If I could choose two "moods" for this post, it would be "frustrated, hopeful." But, alas, I cannot.)
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: "The Captain and the Kid", -JB
thank you. I just thought something was wrong with me. I tend to do things in an orderly manner and when I can't get past that one item then everthing comes to a halt. I need to learn to relax I think and go on to some thing else thne come back to it with a new perspective. At the very least I hope that will work.
I know that not everyone realizes that frustration occurs on all levels of the Org with SP's from time to time. There's absolutely nothing wrong with getting frustrated (or expressing frustration at it).
And sleeping on it sure did help. As did dropping everything and going to a movie last night. I'm much better this morning than I was last night.
Pick me! Pick me!
If you still need anyone, I would be honored to receive a reading from you.
Also, we would love to have you and Shawneen share your methods with our Meetup group. You’ll find that the members are serious readers with varying degrees of experience.