October 12th, 2009
|02:06 pm - A series of oaths, a series of changes|
You know, in many ways, the initiation I went through changed the game I was playing, deepening it and setting new rules. I like to talk about Huizinga's notion of Homo Ludens as vastly superior to Eliade's Homo Religiosis, but I find myself encountering Huizinga's theories on a very real and intimate level in my life.
The rules have changed for me a few times since I started in ADF: my Patron Oath, Dedicant Oath, Consecration Oath, and now my Initiation Oath have all changed the rules ever so slightly, but also so significantly.
My Patron Oath brought me into deeper relationship with Esus and Eris, and it has led to many great things while keeping me grounded and flexible all at once. New rules included building commitment while also deepening understanding in exploration and boundary-pushing.
My Dedicant Oath led me to a place where I was committed in a new way to Our Druidry, where my world was re-framed and brought into sharp focus. There, a new cosmovision sprang forth, and my life has since been filled with spirits and allies I never dreamed would be available to me before. This was pivotal in how I viewed the world.
My Consecration Oath turned a corner I did not expect, and brought me to a place of deeper piety and unfathomable commitment to the rites and rituals of Our Druidry. It also provided me with a commitment to "pay forward" that which I had learned, to bring that training to others and help others through it.
My Initiation Oath took me through deep passages in the earth and high corridors of stars in the heavens, and provided me with new tools and new focus, both in terms of the practical work I had done to get to that point, and in terms of the lessons learned from initiation. It is as if I am seeing the cosmos for the first time, and I understand fully my place within it.
My next oath will be an oath at Ordination, I suspect. I don't know what it will bring, but I can only tell you that it will likely redefine this cosmos yet again, and I am likely to see the world through new eyes, and to have new training and lessons with which to focus them, yet again.
I am excited to see where this leads, and to learn what I can do to help lead others through the mists whose paths become known. In all cases, though, any change that may come requires me to accept the new rules. This is not as simple as saying "yes, I agree to these rules." It is a complicated process of discovering the new rules, agreeing to abide by them, and then acting in accordance with them: recognition, agreement, and action. These are the three steps my oaths have taken and will take.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: "Travelin' Clean", -JB
|Date:||October 12th, 2009 11:01 pm (UTC)|| |
as he flies through an invocation with the greatest of ease, leaps tall world trees in a single bound, and opens the Gates with a frickin' LASER BEAM -- all while wearing a long white beard and a long white robe -- NOW IN COSMOVISION!
|Date:||October 12th, 2009 11:35 pm (UTC)|| |
I wouldn't use it if it weren't a serious academic term.
I also wouldn't use it if it wasn't freakin' hilarious :)
In a lot of ways, I am a little sad that I didn't meet you until so far along your course, but the changes I have seen in the short eighteen months I have known you are remarkable.
I think that the structure and Oathing involved in the Order is something I need. Much like you had the Consecration in between the DP and Initiation, I definitely feel the need for some intermediary-type step. Alhtough I can still feel the blade on my palm, I know that much growth must happen before I am even close to ready for Initiation. Maybe 2011.
Just out of curiosity, have you considered telling us which trees we are? I think (at least for me because I am nosey like that) it would be a good reflective tool for us as individuals. Unless I am a broken sapling with moldy leaves. Then I don't want to know, lol. Or maybe we aren't supposed to know in which case I will leave you alone about it. I have thought about this image many times since you described it, and I see myself as two seperate trees: sometimes, I am a very large Willow tree with huge, bending branches and full, full leaves. Other times, I see myself as a sapling, though well cared for, with one of those metallic bands around the trunk and a stake to keep me upright. Some lessons I have apparently learned well, and others have only just begun to take root.
(Wow, maybe I should have just emailed you.)
I'd never have gotten back to an e-mail :)
I often think I'm glad that so many people who are new to ADF didn't know me prior to consecration. . . I wasn't happy with who I was about three-four years ago, and it showed. It astounds me how transformative these experiences can be.
As for which member is which tree? Well, I could tell you, and thought about it, but I also think that you guys know what tree you are, anyway ;)
I will tell you, though, that you grow fast.
I often think I'm glad that so many people who are new to ADF didn't know me prior to consecration. . . I wasn't happy with who I was about three-four years ago, and it showed.
I've known you that long, and I've always liked you. Not always felt comfortable standing next to you in a lightning storm, but always liked you. :)
(If we're being trees, do I have to be one that would show up where I live, or are all trees fair game?)
All trees are fair game. And there doesn't appear to be any Emerald Ash Borer in that garden, either. :)
In the midst of my breakup with Tina, I ended up pretty bad off, hurt myself and a few other people, and just. . . wasn't happy. I just figure I could have done better by everyone around that time, especially myself.
I'm sorry, it was a tough time for you, I know. I hope your grovies were a wee bit supportive to you, at least. I know I've been less than perfect in my consistency.
Hehe, there's a reason none of you knew me before last year. I doubt any of you would have liked me. You have seen the amount of growth that has ensued since I joined ADF. Allow me to tell you I have been like that for years now, apply that is reverse, and you can only imagine who I used to be. I do, indeed, grow fast, thank the Kindred!
Which reminds me...
Are there still willow branches for the taking from your lovely abode? I am looking for a piece (or pieces) long enough to cut into runes of approximately 1/2" to 3/4" in diameter. And a small handful of leaves would be cool, too. I have some willow discs that are closer to 1.5" rounds, if you want to trade for anything.