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June 9th, 2010

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11:10 am - Applying for Ordination, Reflecting on Changes
Two days ago, I completed my application for ordination as a Priest in ADF. For those unfamiliar with what that means, I'll provide a brief run-down of key facts.
  1. ADF has two levels of Priesthood: Dedicant and Ordained Priests. Dedicant Priests are consecrated, and required to renew their credentials each year. Ordained Priests are ordained (funny, that), and their credentials are good "for life" (at this time). I am currently a Dedicant Priest, and have been renewing my credentials annually for three years.
  2. There are seven currently Ordained Priests in ADF: the past and current Archdruids, and two non-AD ordians.
  3. The only way to become an Ordained Priest currently is to complete the entire ADF Clergy Training Program. Only three people have ever actually done this (other ordinations were done prior to the creation of the CTP, or when the Study Programs were closed to students due to revisions). I am one of those three.
  4. Wellspring 2010 was our first ordination of any Priest in 8 years, where Kirk was ordained and made Archdruid at the same rite.
I've been eligible to apply for ordination for some time now, since my last course was passed on May 7th. As we have worked through some of the questions surrounding the process (remember, we've done this once in 8 years, so we're building traditions as well as drawing out old ones), I've been putting off the process of applying. Most recently, however, I decided that it was time to apply, as it was pointed out to me that the lack of application might be perceived in one of two ways: either there was something wrong with ordination that I didn't want a part of, or something was wrong with my candidacy and the CC Officers wouldn't let me be ordained. . . neither of which, of course, is true. At least, I don't think the other CC Officers think there's something wrong with me :)

Right now, we're trying to work out what exactly is meant by our SOP, which indicates that the Officers will "conduct a detailed examination of each candidate for ordination."

There are some major changes that appear to be occurring with this step, though. . . changes that I did not expect.

A key change has been in my relationship with the patron goddess most people know about: Eris. Over the years, we have begun to drift apart, and the relationship, while still extant, is no longer one of patronage, but one of mutual respect and acknowledgment that we had a great time. It's sort of like a good relationship that had remarkable chemistry but not the kind of staying-power you expected it to have. You remember the good times fondly (and like to trade reminiscences over a bottle of good wine), and there aren't any hard feelings now that it's over. It's just in the past now.

But, I have never felt that patronage of a deity was necessarily life-long. Some paths through the woods diverge, even if they have moved together for a long time, and do not come back together in the foreseeable future. And that's okay. Nine years is a long time to work with anyone.

Another thing I found is that unlike previous steps (my Dedicant Path work, my consecration as a Dedicant Priest, and my Initiation, for example), I feel ready for this. I feel like the training has fully prepared me for this next step, and that while situations will always arise that test my ability, I have enough training to see me through them, even if I have to learn more along the way.

I don't worry about tests that ask tough questions (including "how many Sidhe can dance on the head of a pin") or proving my ritual skills to others. I don't wonder if I'll be the Priest people expect of me.

I am, really, in a place of deep peace surrounding the process of Ordination. I am okay with the changes taking place, and I am encouraging of them. The aim, assuming that I pass the "detailed examination" (which is not a foregone conclusion on my part: ordination tests can be quite difficult to pass) is to be ordained at the Unity Rite on Saturday of Summerland.

I do hope that folk can make it. It would mean a lot to me to have the support of friends and Grove when I take the next oath in my work in ADF.
Current Location: Southeast of Disorder
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: "West Nashville Grand Ballroom Gown", -JB

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Date:June 9th, 2010 03:27 pm (UTC)
I always find it amusing when you talk about being nervous. Mostly because you always seem so calm and collected, but also because so many people already know how skilled you are and what a great clergy person you make :)
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Date:June 9th, 2010 03:34 pm (UTC)
Well, I have some of the worst stage fright in the known world, I tend to think ;) I make a great effort to push through it. I used to have wishful thoughts of "calling in sick" on High Days and making the Grove do ritual without me. . . And I still sometimes do have those thoughts.

(Now that I've mentioned that in "public," I might have to go even if I *am* sick, to prevent people from wondering if I'm just playing sick to get out of ritual!) :)

While I'm remarkably calm regarding the possibilities of testing for ordination, it's a logical calm, not necessarily a mental or physical calm. The thought of failing still terrifies me, but logically I feel ready for whatever test can come at me. I do feel that the CTP and my work has prepared me well for it.

Still, even surrounding "failing" the testing process, should we get our act together and make it happen, is knowledge that this is something I know I can accept. I know there will be other chances to re-take the test, and I know that I'll be even more ready the next time around.
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Date:June 9th, 2010 04:24 pm (UTC)
You are awesome, my friend :)
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Date:June 9th, 2010 08:53 pm (UTC)
I second this. I will say that it makes me feel better since I'm nervous about where my path is headed. It also feels right for me, but I worry about how well I'll do...

Michael, I think it's awesome that you're going to go through with this!
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Date:June 9th, 2010 09:25 pm (UTC)
I think that you'll do well on it :) Being worried/nervous is, I tend to think, a good sign, because it shows that we care about it.
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Date:June 9th, 2010 11:28 pm (UTC)
Well, I'm sure the CC officers may indeed think something is wrong with you, but it's likely unrelated to your path as Clergy in ADF, haha.

I am so proud of you, and I find it an honor to stand behind you as a Grovemember and a friend at your Ordination and beyond. Your like a super-intelligent little brother. You may be smarter than me, but I'm older and can totally kick your ass when you need it. ;)

Someday in the near future, you'll stand behind me as I am Initiated into the current, or more likely, you will be one of the Initiators yourself. Maybe then you'll understand how I feel, if you don't already. Congratulations on all your hard work and accomplishments, Mike.
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Date:June 10th, 2010 02:33 am (UTC)
Whether I initiate you or someone else does, I'll be behind you. You can trust in that.

I'm a very fortunate person to have a Grove such as the one we share. It is the people around me that make me great, if great I am.

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