March 17th, 2004
|06:05 pm - I'm tired. So very tired.|
I wonder what it's like to cry? So many times, people say they "need a good cry". I've never had one. Well, not that I remember, that's for sure. Not since my grandfather died. That was. . . geez, maybe 15, 16 years ago? I don't know.
I wonder if it does someone good to cry. I wonder if it's a useful thing, beyond the functional aspects of clearing one's eyes of dirt and dust.
I don't know. I've never been able to experience it in a way that I could appreciate it.
I occasionally squeeze a single tear out, but not often. It's not like I try to hold it back, but I just can't do it. Heck, I even tried once. Nothin'.
It's caused me problems. It's not even like I haven't been in situations where I should have cried. Trust me, my life isn't all skittles and beer, no matter what I may like to believe.
Did I do something wrong? Is there a mistake in my central programming? Is there a switch that I accidentally flipped one night while sleeping oddly?
But sometimes it bugs me.
I won't be on IM tomorrow. Email me if you need anything.
Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: "Come Monday", -JB
Sometimes people don't need to cry to have that release. I think it's just the way we're built. I did not cry too much growing up but then I had my son and now I can cry at the drop of a hat or a cute kitten on teevee.
I'll trade you. ;-/
|Date:||March 17th, 2004 04:22 pm (UTC)|| |
I cry at the drop of a hat also, and people I know who have chosen to take estrogen find that they cry more easily after they start treatment. Perhaps you just don't have enough estrogen in your body. *wink*
I generally feel better once I've indulged in a good cry. I think it lets out some horomones or something ... No clue.
I hope you're feeling better. No stressing, leave that to me. I stress enough for the both of us and then some :-)
|Date:||March 17th, 2004 05:19 pm (UTC)|| |
I used to not allow myself to cry. Went to funerals, way too many for a kid, and didn't cry a single tear. (I would cry to get my parents to stop spanking, but that doesn't count)
I just didn't allow myself the emotion until it was too much to bear. *shrug* Guess I had to learn the hard way.
Never cried a lot, but when I was in my late teens I decided to give it up. I'm not sure why, I think I wanted to prove a certain level of self-control to myself. I lasted a year or two. Eventually realized it was pretty silly :). I'm not a drop-of-the-hatter but I think I do it more often since I had kids (lack of sleep, perhaps? :)).
However, a good cry? The whole rest of the day my sinuses are clogged and I'm miserably uncomfortable. I've never noticed feeling particularly better emotionally, either, honestly. I think it has a purpose, but I don't think I have ever "appreciated" it either :).
talk about hard core spiritual revelations that I'VE had latley, thanks much to ayla.:) i'd like to do a tarot reading for you? for practice? maybe next psa meeting? it would be neat practive, or something.
If you really want, but I'm not an ideal candidate.
I don't like traditional Tarot cards. I've come to the conclusion that I don't even really like touching them. My Discordian Deck is about all I will use.
But if you really want to practice on me, then sure, why not?
ok. cool:) we can do it whenever you can make time.:)
You are in luck! The first meeting of spring quarter is a Divination mtg!
Yay for lazy cochairs!
lol. that will work:) a good way to kick my ass out of the house too.
i'd still like to do one for you, sooner though, practice and all.
You are very welcome to do a reading for me. I'll be back in Columbus on the 27th- but busy all day. The 28th I plan to sleep, but on Monday the 29th I can chill a bit before or after work.
I find it upsetting when people cry for someone they didn't know, or a celebrity. I don't cry regarding a death or horrible illness unless I personally know the person. As for other reasons to cry, I tend to do that in private. I just don't share that part of myself, and I know that's programming from my unemotional father. Hard to get past, though. Ironically, when acting, I can cry very easily. I do tend to shed tears in September, though, in memory of my loving kitty who passed in 2000, who had been my companion for 16.5 wonderful years. Love ya, booboo.
crying for me is like masturbation. it is great for one thing: a release.
if i'm really pissed off and i know i need a good cry, i just voice my thoughts aloud. i can't ever cry unless i'm trying to explain things. when i hear how pitiful my voice is i usually break down.
if that doesn't work i break out my little purple freind.